I'm sorry, so sorry...

Medifast,
I have a confession to make. I cheated on you. This is usually the point in the relationship where I quit. In fact, by 8 o'clock last night, I had myself convinced that you were not for me, that I had already "blown it" past the point of recovery and there was no point to even try to get back on track. You know what Medifast? That is what I ALWAYS do when I have a set back- I quit. Not this time! I refuse! I paid 300 dollars for you and I'll be darned if I will let that go to waste! I know that today will be hard (once you taste the "forbidden fruit" it is hard to go back to chalky shakes) but I WILL DO IT. I keep telling myself, this is only for a month. Maybe two. Maybe three if it works well. IT'S NOT FOREVER! I WILL be able to transition back to "regular" food at some point. I CAN hang in there. No one is asking me to never eat cookies again- I just need to avoid them for now. I can do that. I WILL DO THAT!

I am choosing to use this slip as a learning experience. I learned this:

• I need to eat ALL FIVE medifast meals a day. I have not been doing that. I have been averaging about three.
• The skipping of the medifast meals allows me get too hungry, which leads to binges. If I am consuming a protein rich medifast product every 2 hours, I will be able to keep myself under control (because I won't be so hungry that I'd eat the paint off the walls).
• I must follow the plan to the letter. I must stop tweaking things and skipping meals thinking it will speed weight loss. I am not a doctor. Doctors developed this plan. I have to trust their program. If I knew how to do this, I wouldn't be fat in the first place.
• I have to always be prepared. Carry shake packets with me at all times.
  
• I need to forgive myself for slip ups. This is not an "all or nothing" proposition. I will slip up and that is OKAY. The only failure is in quitting. I need to keep going, even after a setback. Quitting on myself is what got me fat and quitting on myself is what will keep me fat.

The evil metal box said 202 today. Considering the amount of carbs I ate yesterday (buh-bye ketosis), this is actually not that bad. I am still down 3 pounds from last Wednesday, when I started. Pretty darn good, if I don't say so myself.

Medifast, we're back on. I am recommitting myself to you. Let's rock this thing.

It's on like donkey kong,
McFluffin'